FROM THE BEGINNING

What……Cancer?  Did I hear that correctly? Can you please repeat what you just said?...

Flash back to December 1, 2014

I was busy getting ready for a wedding in just a few days.  I felt achy and flu like but didn't really think anything thing of it.  Lately I have been feeling this way and just thought it was a combination of nerves, moving and a heavy work schedule. All I could think of was sleep….. The day of our wedding my daughter and her friend came over to help me get ready. I was freezing and achy, again just thinking it was nerves.  It progressively got worse as the evening went on.  After the ceremony all I could think of was where to sit and how fast I could take off my shoes.  My sweet husband was concerned and very attentive but let’s be honest I wasn't that much fun on one of the greatest nights of my life.

As time passed I would have times when I would start to feel normal yet always seemed sluggish and achy.  It seemed like it was always a two week cycle.  In the early part of February I once again felt like the flu was coming on.  It was then that I first felt a lump….. “What is that? Could it be?” I didn't say anything that night about my new discovery. I just laid there in bed and thought it was probably just a cyst and there was nothing to worry about. The next morning I set up a mammogram for the earliest appointment.

The following Thursday I went in and had my mammogram.  They confirmed that it was a mass and that I would be getting a call to have an ultrasound done. Before I got home that evening I received a call that they wanted me to come back in on Tuesday for an ultrasound.  No surprise since they already told me and  I was convinced it was just a cyst.  

Tuesday came and my sweetheart wanted to go with me. I said “Honey, it’s nothing they are just doing a routine ultrasound.  I’m sure everything is OK!” I went in and as they were doing the ultrasound the Tech showed me the mass and showed me an additional area of concern as well as a lymph node that seemed irregular she called for the Radiologist to come to the room. As we were waiting for him to come she starting to explain to me that they were going to be doing a biopsy on two areas.  She also proceeded to tell me what was going to be happening in detail which I was grateful for.  After everything was done I remember walking to my car and thinking “What just happened, what’s going on!” I had a good cry as I drove back to work. Later when I got home I walked into the room with my husband and he looked so worried and concerned as though I had something horrible to tell him. I just told him it’s nothing I’m sure it’s just a cyst and I don’t want the kids to see us looking so down and worried. So until we hear back things will just be back to normal. We put on our best faces and went out to make dinner for the kids. They had no idea as to what was going on.

Lisa